Thankyou to everyone for their sweet messages and lovely emails following my last post about the little blessing. It means the world that so many of you are supporting me and appreciated my honestly from the post.
Here's a very exciting little follow up post about what we are having. After a wonderful private scan we found out we are having a...LITTLE GIRL! I can now safely say I'm currently making a mermaid and I am over the moon.
It was strange before we found out I felt a little detached from the pregnancy. Having been so ill and off work for so long it's been really hard for me to stay positive because I've been so run down. Some people fly through pregnancy with hardly any symptoms apart from having sore boobs or the odd headache. I've had seriously bad morning sickness, migraines to the point I'm sick, heartburn that feels like I've swallowed a bonfire, pains that have sent me to the doctors and a terrifying bleed that ended up in a hospital visit. So far it has been a bit of a nightmare, and a lot of these symptoms aren't leaving me anytime soon. But when we found out this little bump is a little lady I can't help but picture her face, picture her smiling away in my tummy when I rub it and she kicks back. It's helped me get more into focusing on the pregnancy and the safety of my baby.
Since our first scan (third photo) I found it funny in my head that if it was a little girl she was already acting like a little model, waving at the camera and always being right where she needed to be for the measurements and when the photos were being taken. But I was still convinced it would be a boy.
Then after thinking more I was even more sure it was going to be a boy after loads of people saw the scan photos and guessed boy. It was only when the gender scan was a few days away people started guessing girl and my gut was flickering with girl vibes but I tried to ignore them thinking it was just me doubting myself. Then at the scan, she was once again right there where she needed to be, gave up her signature wave again and was posing with her arms up, under chin, her legs stretched all way showing us all these things she could already do. But when it came to the sonographer finding out what sex she was she wasn't going to give us an easy reveal. Instead she sat with her legs crosses, then put the umbilical cord in front of her and hide behind it, then opened her legs but actually reached over and put her hand over her bits so we couldn't see! (Hilarious to say the least) Then as if she was telling us herself, she moved her hand out the way and gave us the perfect potty shots! 3 little white lines. "Tada I'm a girl!" Such a little monkey! But it made the experience so much more enjoyable knowing how funny it all was.
Nearly at 20 weeks now so less than 2 weeks until our anomaly scan, which I'm pretty terrified about as I just hope out little mermaid is 100% healthy and happy in there. But I can't wait to see her again and see how she's developed since last time!
As you've probably noticed and some of you have even very thoughtfully directly contacted me to see how I am, I have been very absent from my blog for the last couple of months. Life has been beyond crazy and it's given me a surprise that totally stopped me in my tracks.
Blessings come when you least expect them and this little bundle is exactly that...which is due in February 2017 by the way! That's right I'm currently making a little mini me and I'm 18 weeks so very nearly half way through already! Ahhh!
What's made the whole thing crazier is that I had no idea. Obviously we flew out to Rhodes for my birthday...the whole time unknowingly carrying extra luggage. Even when we came back it took another 4 weeks till we found it, purely because I thought I had caught a bug in Rhodes and it was belated symptoms making me so ill. But no it was the little bambino deciding I needed to know about him/her and wanted to tell me by making me super ill for a good 2 months.
So when you hear about people not knowing they are pregnant...it can actually happen. I didn't know till I was about 11 weeks. Basically smashed the first trimester without knowing...now I'm making up for it with constant sickness, headaches and heartburn.
I can honestly tell you that this is completely the opposite direction of where I thought I'd be this year, but this is another level of exciting. I know some of you will be sat reading this and judging me ("OMG I can't believe she's pregnant WTH") but this journey has not been an easy one and you really can't judge unless you have been in this situation. In the beginning I was terrified, "how am I pregnant?" "This can't be happening to me!" "I wanted to have my own house and be married and settled when I have babies"...but sometimes life knows you better than you know yourself. Life gives you what you can handle...and I am a strong person so I know I can do this. If life believes I can do it, then so do I. Just have to have faith in these things.
Another crazy factor to this story is how I actually got pregnant....no no don't worry I'm doing going to into the details of "that" but I'm talking about how it was possible. I have been on the pill for years and it's been pretty reliable...until now. Until I made the mistake of wanting to drop a few pounds before holidays...yes this is all thanks to a very very well known Teatox. That's right ladies...if you don't want a surprise baba then don't buy them. Not saying I regret it as I've made this adorable little munchkin that's kicking away inside as I'm typing but it was not at all planned thats for sure. As the teatox flushes you out it flushes out your pill at the same time...it seems obvious now but at the same when you've been on it for years you just think you've taken it so you're safe. WRONG! Let's just leave that warning there shall we.
But anyway onto the more exciting bits. On a very rare afternoon of feeling 20% ok and after applying a LOT of make up so I don't look like a zombie, I met up with my dear friend and photographer, Emma Griffin so she could take some photos for our baby announcement and just some nice ones we can keep forever. Literally a day before this I had no bump...then boom, the baby knew it was being photographed and wanted to be seen...like mother like baby ;)
Hopefully I'll keep feeling better and better and can start blogging properly again, now with a little bit of a mix between fashion and baby things but cheers to the next chapter of FiveFootFour...(+1) xxx
