Last week I did a shoot in an absolutely amazing house in Cornwall. It was for Number 8 Hair Salon on Truro, where we went for prep in the morning and they created some insane hair creations for us, with make up by Natasha Flower. This was the shoot I wasn't handling my anxiety too well on but when you have an amazing team that are wonderfully supportive the photos are still on point!
I massively feel in love with this incredible house, the stain glass windows, the original bells that were in each bedroom that link to the kitchen, everything I've always adored about old houses.
I honestly wish I could create hair styles like this on myself but with all the beautiful detail from all angles I figured it's best to leave it to the professionals. What do you guys think of my hair style on this shoot?
Photographer: Griffin Photography
MUA: Natasha Flower
Hair Number 8 Hair Salon
Some clothing: Magpie & Fox, Truro
Firstly I want to thank those of you who have emailed, text, DMed or whatever this week showing your support and saying super lovely things to make me feel better. It honestly means so much to me that you took the time to send them!
I usually make videos that are more my weird and happy side and talk about whatever people ask me to do and add my random spin on things. Yeah everyone I know thinks of my as this positive person who always sees the best in situations and that's truly awesome. I do try really hard to forgive, see the best in people, find the positives in the worst days and just go on believing everything will work out.
BUT there is a side I don't tend to talk about/show at all until recently. Anxiety is something that people believe to be spoken about loads, but when it's you it's really hard to open up about it. I made this video to try help those of you who do have it and still struggle. Life doesn't always go the way you want but it does get better.
I am super nervous and worried about posting this because it's a side I don't like to show and I don't want people to treat me or think of me any different. It's not like I'm going to die or anything, but if it helps someone it will be worth it, so I hope it does.
WATCH MY ANXIETY STORY HERE!
Basically it's super early in the UK but I literally can't cope with finding out who A is so I have taken to blogging about it before I try and sleep again.
Here are things I need to vent about...
1. It's been years of waiting! Speculating, theories, tense moments, shockers but it's over! We know!!! Cece is A!!! The hashtag is #faCEtofaCE...CECE is literally right before our eyeballs! That's not really a rant just something that I massively enjoyed seeing. HOW is CeCe A? Turns out CeCe is Charles...yeah that's right. Charles transitioned into Charlotte...who then became CeCe Drake. *insert shocked emoji face here*
2. Remember that ep. when it flashed back to Ali being little and finding 2 dresses in the piano? That has bothered me for ages because Charles was (until tonight) a boy so that didn't make any sense. Until now that we know Mrs. D was clothing Charles in the same clothes at Ali!
3. I'm a liiiiiittle disappointed that PLL fans came up with a way better theory than CeCe being A. Sure it was deep, emotional, tears did fall but still...Wren would have been an insane reveal and Spencer would have totally broken down if she found out she had been with A. Weird but SO juicy. Cece was always in the background and a bit of a bitch so now it's out; it's not that shocking at all really.
4. Sara is red coat and black widow! Now this was a shock. She played innocent so well...then again so did Emily until she punched Sara in the face! GO EMILY! But seriously this was a shock, even thought she was never trusted. This just wasn't what I thought Sara was.
5. WHY didn't we see the mothers get out of the basement? Are they still there in 5 years time? Who found them? How did they escape? WHAT?!
6. Who killed Mrs. D? Seriously...
7. So yeah we know who A is, FINALLY, but what the hells the end about? "He" is coming after Ali? WHO THE HELL IS "HE"? Did Cece return to being Charles? Just when you thought you couldn't absorb anymore information into that exploding brain, that happens!
So yet again I am waiting for PLL to start up again for more of my questions to be answered but at least Ali got married right? That means her wedding had no dramas or murders or kidnappings, go her!
As promised I am getting back into my YouTube and here is a new shiny blog for you all. On request I have done a "What's In My Bag" video, featuring my gorgeous Radley handbag. As usual there are weird and wonderful (mostly weird) elements to my video so please watch, like and SUBSCRIBE! If there is any videos you want me to do please comment and let me know!
Life can be a really funny thing sometimes. It can be a dark place where everything is confusing and you feel trapped with a millions ways of feeling alone but with no way out. But it can also be something amazing, it's something you create. Life can be wonderful, inspiring, magical even without us being capable of actual magic, it surrounds us everyday.
I have recently had such a wonderful message sent to me saying how I've inspired someone to go out and chase their dream, like I have mine. Without even realising it I have some how managed to help someone find happiness in a new job and comfort in knowing they are capable to go out there and find what they want and deserve. I'm honestly so touched that I can help some of you guys with your ambitions and dreams. Times like this I am so grateful for everything I have been through in my life, even all the dark times that seemed like they would never end, the heart ache, the tearful goodbyes...it had all been part of my journey to where I am now.
Knowing that as I am, I can influence people to create a life they want makes me so happy I went through it all, and I would do it all over again just to know I am helping people. Life is curious, how things work out, how everything connects in ways you can never imagine. But my only advice is, have faith. Believe in yourself, believe things will improve, believe you can change, believe you can get that promotion, believe you can find a job that is effortless to go to. Have faith in knowing everything will work out no matter what happens. I completely trust in myself to make the right choices, and the rest is a journey you embrace and learn from. This is how I live, I'm grateful for all I am and have, I believe there is always good and most of all, I let things be, trust.
Thankyou to the beautiful person for you message, it was so much appreciated. Thankyou for your kind words and inspiring this post! Goodluck in all you do, and I hope more of you will let me know if I have helped you in anyway! I would love to hear your stories!
